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Name: Becky
Birthday: 1/1/1986
Gender: Female
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Occupation: research, restaurants
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2/11/2007
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| I am now graduated and the celebration is over. I have really lost the motivation to be doing this so I am going to take a break. Pray summer boredom changes my mind.
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| I now have a TV in my room. I have yet to decide if this is a good thing. I probably won't use it much, but it was cheap and I helped a friend by getting it off her hands so I figured it couldn't hurt, especially if I don't have a roommate to mooch off of next year.
An awkward meeting at the bus stop translated into a bonus at work. Random. Cool. Blessings. I'm feeling shielded there and it is kind of uncomfortable sometimes. I am one of two coders who never gets recodes, which we don't get paid for and often take up hours of time we could otherwise be coding. They are a pain and pretty frustrating. I am glad that God is protecting my time there and helping me earn to capacity so that I can manage to not be working 10 hour days, but my co-workers that include my boyfriend and my roommate are getting rather frustrated. I'm not complaining because I try to and think I do a good job there, but I have to wonder sometimes why I don't seem to be struggling. If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is it to you? You must follow me. It gives me more motivation to use my paychecks wisely and give back that I can respond to the gifts I've been offered.
As the pages in my life turn, I am waking up to a much fuller life. I've been able to wake up earlier and stay up later. Eat breakfast. Work well. Be around. I am praying and trying to figure out what more I can/should be doing at DJJ.
I miss this song. I'm glad I remembered it again.
All of your weight
All you dream
Falls on me, it falls on me
And your beautiful sky
The light you bring
Falls on me, falls on me
Wow. This is getting lame. I am still getting epiphanies, but maybe they aren't wowing me as much as normal to provoke me to share them. Children get extreme amounts of pleasure out of everything. Adults take things in and brush things off that they take for granted. And so it goes with my epiphanies. Sad for them.
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| Today I slapped 7 pages of Mencken critique in a box in the Honors College Office and was done with undergrad. For good measure, I also dumped my thesis notecards in their recycling bin.
And thus begins the rest of my life, which was more enjoyable and eventful than normal. I finished strong at work today with no headache and none of the usual itchiness to leave. Then I made friends with the prop guys on the movie set which stands between my shuttle and work and they pointed out that the public could go watch them filming. I still don't know if I caught a glimpse of Jake Gyllenhaal or not, but it was cool to see and talk to the people making it all happen. Hopefully it will be a bit better than Death Sentence.
Jail was unusual tonight. I went yesterday for Family Focus Day and got to walk around and look at my girl's schoolwork and talk to her teachers (when exactly did I become the parent of a 16 year old? haha) I even have the lit project to show for it. One of the girls had no one show up so we took her around to her classes too. I got to put a lot of faces with names which came in handy tonight when I got to watch them practice dance. "Hey Mentor!!!" I had been praying all the way there and facing up to doubts, but once I got there they were wiped out. I AM and I made you for something. And I made every one of them. I didn't think I would end up working with juveniles, but I felt a strong pull back at it. They were all so grateful to have me watch them practice especially when my girl was unable to show and they all got really upset that she was unable to speak with me tonight. I wanted to be able to meet with all of them. I was always afraid that would happen, but it didn't really hit me until this past time. Pull a Bible Study together maybe? That might rock face.
Here is where I am not sure what I'm allowed to say about ironic phone calls.
I always swore that this would not turn into a play by play of my day. But this has been the most interesting one I've had in awhile. School is over. It begins.
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| I've been seeing a lot of Maxcy lately. Heck I had already forgotten freshman English which got brought up tonight...I went to a party and actually had a really good time. That should seem like an obvious statement, but I have been notably absent from them. I'm really glad I went. Has it always been good like that? I want more time. I have really been looking forward to revocation and having everyone
reunited. It is going to be very bittersweet as I have been out of
touch with a lot of them for a few years and getting back together with
the group as a whole is going to stir up a lot of memories.
Today I took my last paper into my own hands and decided I was going to write it as I wanted to. It's anticlimactic not being able to hand it in for 2 more days.
That's all folks...
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| I turned my thesis in this morning. Death to all pastel notecards still littering my room. Check.
Philosophy final. I was convinced that the advisers made a mistake and that I should not have been required to take this class. I'm glad I had to. My professor was pretty intriguing. He was really laid back and personable, but the way he presented the topics led me to believe that in actuality, he was trying to get people to start asking important questions about and seeking out faith. I could be completely wrong, but he still gets points for being unpretentious. I on the other hand, am in jeopardy of losing unpretentious points now I can quote philosophers. I will have to do this stealthfully, because I have learned quite a few useful arguments. Not my strong point. Check.
The only thing that stands between me and graduation is H.L. Mencken. Go figure. He would giggle in his grave to know this. _____
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